It's been 60 days since we lost our sweet Clooney. I have to say that I feel like most people don't get me in this regard. To them losing a pet is sad but somehow they get over it quickly and move on. For me - losing Clooney has been incredibly difficult. The grief is not a weeping, in your face, feeling sad every minute of the day kind of feeling. It's more of an emptiness, a dull, nagging ache - that feeling you have when a headache is starting but hasn't quite kicked off yet.
I miss him terribly - his sweet kisses, his sweet face, his smell... I miss our interactions and our time together - we had a special thing going. I feel like my world is somewhat incomplete without him. I experienced this with Isabel - she was a part of my life for a long time and she was my "first" kitty. Even years later I think of her with such fondness and sadness that she is gone. Nigel was my sweet hedgehog boy and I miss having a hedgehog for sure. I do think that he will be my only hedgehog though and I think of him often and miss him greatly. With Clooney - he was my first ferret and let's be honest - I am crazy about ferrets. My attachment to him has to do with learning everything I know about ferrets from him. He was patient with me and generous and he was such a kind animal in showing affection and being unconditional. Our bond was strong and its difficult to move forward.
I still have times of tears and sometimes I have a good laugh remembering his crazy antics. I am so thankful for the documentation of his life and the pictures - the thousands of pictures. I have captured his essence in images and words and for that I am grateful.
Time marches on and I adore my loving little zoo. The kitties, pup, ferret and piglet fill my heart with joy each day and I am thankful for each of them. I try to cherish each day with them because time goes too fast and they will not always be with me. I smile thinking of Nigel, Clooney and Isabel playing together at the rainbow bridge.
I miss you Clooney boy - more than you could ever imagine....